Pleasant Darkness (The Hidden Peace)

Everything is abnormal But abnormal is nothing I'm normal But normal is fake I'm fake But the thing that is not normal Is nothing, doesn't even exist But I do I have to act normal I have to act fake And that's abnormal But "I'M NORMAL" Not really I have to tell my mind I have to fit it in my brain " I'M NORMAL " But I'm tired of it I'm unable To do normal things But if I couldn't How will I live? I'm dying But " I'M NORMAL " Shut up heart " I'M NORMAL " Keep quiet And laugh Fake is NORMAL Am I fake? And is it alright?

Who loves me?  The people I always do ignore?  Or the one I admire all alone The one whom I hurt most?  Or the one I love without cost When I turned right Or left and around I found the people all over  But I was alone Who loves me?  The one whom I love?  Or the one I do ignore Another question arises That who loves me more?  The one who waits for me?  Or the one who follows me everyday on road The one who always try to talk Or the one who shy a lot But leaving everything I'm thinking about my doll My bestie who always be with me And wait for me for hours Who loves me?  Who loves me more? 

I know how broken I'm  I know how I suffer I know how much it pains I know how I'm dealing with it I agree I'm lost Deep down in the world of ghosts I agree I'm in pieces Somewhere in galaxies Yes, i can't get up now I can't even solve the puzzle The puzzle of never ending questions That tied in the holes of my heart Questions about what I did What was wrong in me? Why I suffer always? And why I'm still alive? Everyone hates me Hate to see my smile Hate to see my ugly face And want me to die But still I'm happy That it's just me With whom everything is happening And I still have tears to cry I'm happy that I'm facing it Rather than someone else I don't have to see anyone crying For the situation I have I'm happy that I don't have happiness Maybe I distributed all Among the poor people of world wide As I always pray for I'm happy that I have feelings Maybe died, but still more than alive ones At least I know people ...