Pleasant Darkness (The Hidden Peace)

I was a little child When that elder ones Were beating a kind man I tried to stop them But my dad said "Shhh.. they are your elders" I was of 12 When my elder schoolmates Were irritating an innocent girl I told to my teachers And they said "Shhh..don't tell anyone" For their school's reputation I was of 15 When my grandpa did something I was angry on him And stepped forward to fight But my mom stopped me saying, "Shhh.. respect your elders, go and apolozise" I was of 17 When a relative touched me I raised my voice again And everyone said "Keep shame in your eyes, they are elders Whatever they do is alright" Now, when everyone using me Killing me hardly from inside How will I break the silence When I know my voice will left unheard Cause they think I'm lying Since they're elders, and Me? Am I a child? It doesn't mean that anyone who is elder than you is doing everything perfect, WRONG means wrong no matter if it...

Sinking and sinking More and more deeply To the depth of a sea Sea of my thoughts And ocean of my memories It's just like I'm not over thinking I'm just started thinking the things For the very first time  As I just left everything Without thinking anything And I found the thoughts Splitting out intensely Jumping to come out From my heart and brain The zip on my mouth Is not working now Since I opened it ones And the overloaded thoughts  Are coming out like hell Memories passing by my sight In the form of bubbles Making me smile sometime Or leaving some regrets Showing me everything I kept locked in a grave  The things hard to believe And harder to feel the pain Thoughts and memories together Hitting my mind with a bat Persuading me to hate everything And to love my own self Some are loving vibes too From the deep corner of my heart From the one standing with me On the phone calls of hours I'm broken and lost But happy too if you stare  When she called me...

Hey! Can you see? There is a girl sitting near the tree And some people standing behind you Gossiping about life after the death Can you see anyone? No? But it's true There is an another world too Which is living with you Hiding from you And running like humans do There is a hidden mysterious world Which is disappeared But still some part of it is present The people who used to live here Are still living here too What if we can't see It's just in virtual world But it's true

On the upper branch of a tree A creature was sitting and was free Watching a man trying but still sinking The creature was a gentle toad So he jumped to the road Cause he had a habit of helping Began swimming to that lost guy With a floater because he can't fly And reached to the man who was screaming By the face, he was seemed like cool But literally he was really a fool Still, he had no brain and was shrinking When the toad came close, he found the man was just drinking "Oh gosh", the toad was trapped in his own thinking

I never used to be like this I remember everything My thoughts were never like this before And I was really nice and kind My heart was pure And I was innocent Now I'm insane And more worst than devil of doom I'm becoming a mad bitch searching the death bed  I'm sinking in my own dreams But I never existed like this before Unconscious about my own feelings And lost all my emotions Forgetting about every happy moment And drowning on the feelings I never loved before Spending alone nights Scared of everything Hiding teary eyes And keeping all sadness Hating every single thing I used to like I'm lost in myself Away from my own heart

The deep red blood On your blonde beautiful neck I was so much screwy As I couldn't even see your pain I was deeply falling for it With it's gratifying smell Like a wolf or a lioness do Watching the fresh and delightful flesh You were lying unconsciously on the floor And I was controlling myself alone It was probably the first time When I was feeling like a wild beast's clone Your blood was inviting me As I was sottish enough I wanted that numb body hardly I had no intension to hurt your soul I came a little closer Controlling my high heartbeats I touched that cavernous wound On the lower part of your knees I was getting insane In the fighting with my inner beast There was no one to stop it And I grasped your whole skin Chewing the pulpy muscles and the blood was all around  I fiendishly killed your body  As I never been known

Walking on a empty road I was drowning in my own thoughts By reading a crucial line "Two faces, one evil and other divine" Human have mysterious life Little dramatic having fake smile Sometimes beautiful as angels And sometimes behaves as evil butterflies The so called humans With a heart of steel Sometimes seems as sweet As sugar coated pills While watching a little fish I reached to a beautiful beach Got struck between two sides Saving her or let her cook after she die I touched her spine And felt her last breathes Wondering her beauty I forgotten my all sins I wanted to save her But evil side knocked my brain Hitting the divine me I again leaved her on gravy sand The voices from both sides Overcoming my head And after few seconds The little helpless beauty was dead

Scared from everything Hiding behind air Running from everyone Lying like corpse Unconscious about every touch Can't feel any harm At the phase of this life I'm on devil's arms Ignored and swallowed eyes Tired from the world Teary and weak Exhausted and lost Waiting for demons Or poison, to be killed Having empty wish list Away from the love Away from myself Hating my own existence Screaming silently And waking up again from sleepless nights

He was brutal that day Like the lion before deer He tied my body with a brownish rope On the wooden edges of my soft bed I was totally surprised As I seen a wild animal inside him He took a sharpened knife And started piercing every layer of my skin He was extracting my every part And I was just watching unconsciously I wanted to scream hard But my voice denied to support me He was dipped in the blood My own dark reddish blood And suddenly I get up and stood I found nothing around me Was that really happened? I watched the cuts on my corpse But everything was disappeared like nothing And again I'm motionless drowning in my own thoughts Was it just schizoaffective disorder Or I'm seek of depression Is my own character from the world inside the mirror came out? Or it's demonic possession Everything going through my sight And I forgotten my existence I found myself in the middle of a desert Doing what?... nothing! Just laying down on the burning sand He was still standing the...

"Hannah, where are you? Don't you know I asked you to iron my shirt and you're still doing shit" the girl lost in household works and still being blamed for everything happens there. That day, Hannah cried again, her heart screamed when she was sinless and still being blamed by everyone. She remembered the moments and all the memories she had before, with the one she really loved a lot. Watching the pictures of her parents, who thrown her to the hell and grabbed her from her heavenly perfect world. "Hannah, shut up your mouth and get ready, we are your parents and we know what's good and bad for you and since we are your parents you must live like how we want you to live, we doesn't gave you birth to make us shameful in the front of society later. I don't wanna listen anything from you." The words of her mother were passing through her sight making giving her ears pain. She was fighting for her love and a beautiful life, the day before her mar...

Possessiveness,the word itself says a lot, being possessive for someone like stalking someone and getting angry about their own decisions and wanting them to obey you is called possessiveness. When we start our conversation with someone at the first time, we can't know whether what will happen next and how the person really is. But, after giving them enough time and when the person shows their real behaviour in front of you, you can see how the person reacts on the things you do and how they take you in their normal everyday life. In most cases, the person will ask you some small things like mostly in a conversation, the person asks about whom you talk, how you know them or even ask you to block other friends because of their jealousy (can be taken as their possessiveness) and when you obey them, they'll start to ask your passwords and the sweet talks turns into evil and irritating behaviour. The next step in most cases is the person will start getting angry on sill...