Pleasant Darkness (The Hidden Peace)

I'm displayed in a jar Like a portrayed picture Stuck inside these transplant walls Circular and unmovable Everyone moving around me And I'm at the center With the cap of jar closed And some holes for oxygen It's really hard to breathe And no one can hear my scream I'm scared and hungry I know nothing, what'll they do to me Where is my love, where is my family Where is all my people gone after leaving me How'll they fight and will i be rescued? From these weird huge creatures looking humanly

  The day i learnt to live Was the day i took birth in real When days were passing in sorrows I remember the candle burning there When i was lying down, freezing Your warm hand was rescuing me It was too calm that i couldn't stop To hold it for the rest of my life When i was falling under the sea Your love kept holding me up And you are the one who lighted up My dark soul underneath We laughed, we walked We drunk, we smoke And that was the only moment I found I'm real, not just a doll #chhaya

  The droplets seems to be last longer Than my existence in this safe corner As my fingers bleed to write you In my empty veins with blackish ink The droplets from this ink pen Keep fulfilling my every part As I'm disappearing, a little by little And I may extinct one day, or die As the last day will find me But the feelings i bleed The words that i wrote The ink that captured my emotions Will last for so long And I'm sinking in my memories A little by little, every single second And when i get disappeared I want you to drown in me I want you to sink in deeply Through the mirror i have made Writing my soul underneath By this blackish ink

  The life is so unfair With some people like us I may say I'm not happy But when I walk out When i see everyone crying When i hear about people Whose life is ended by starving It gives me goosebumps It makes my eyes wet by just thoughts I might be not that much wealthy But i really think when i see people, Laying down at the corners of roads Whole night in dark and cold Without shelters and without meals I'm luckiest to be able to fulfil my needs I wish i can have enough money To give shelter to all people In this cruel unfair world It hurts when i see people screaming And i couldn't do anything I wish i can be rich Not for myself, but for the poor people Who need my help Ethiopians or Indians it doesn't matter The poverty is just sinking all people Killing them slowly #chhaya #poor #helpless #poverty

“That footsteps came back I can feel them, i heard them” I was yelling, crying, telling them all Everyone ignored me, Ignored my screams and pain And leaved me alone in a dark room I felt like they want me to die Someone took my left leg And pulled me down And a i seen two eyes, under my bed These eyes were coming closer And eventually someone beated me on head My blood was flowing And i was lying there on floor And some unbelievable looking creatures Red eyes, long black hairs, with hinged jaws They were eating my stomach I was screaming by the pain But more painful was watching them They were eating my intestine And i could even see them I was crawling to die But i couldn’t I was saying “please pull my heart out Or leave me alone” And they kept cutting my flesh into parts I could see the bones of my leg in their hands And than after eating my half body They came to my heart, my face They were coming closer and closer And i died

You wanted to play a game And you came closer to my heart You pushed me to love you And kissed me to make me love it too I was collecting my scattered feelings And you disappeared I seen you, i craved you But you had been so ignorant I searched you, probably everywhere I searched the love you shown me But when you were before my eyes The distance sounded even more loud Again, you appeared suddenly You asked me to play again I agreed since i loved the game Not for fun, but for the time we spend The very next moment, when the game end You disappeared, again and again I couldn't found you in even yourself But in the little pieces in my veins I wonder if it's really you Who was standing in front of me I felt the things you made me think But you never felt the same I was stuck in the middle of game Numb with the feelings you gave Alone, screaming your name Hurting just myself And than i heard "The game of love is over", you said