Pleasant Darkness (The Hidden Peace)

Do I really love him? I'm questioning myself Why I'm unable, To do the things he like? If I love him Why can't I accept his way? Our love is not same Why can't he make me realize That he love me. Is it really love? Or buried lust in our eyes I'm tired of my thoughts About what really happening  If I love him, Why it's killing me? If I'll stop, I'll be the murderer of myself My own soul. Do I really love him? I'm questioning myself I'm deeply burning By the lust inside us But is it really lust? Or untold love between us The unsaid words Or an undefined way to love

We lived together,  Loved each other,  Connected our soul,  And been together. Danced with our soul,  Smiled with our heart,  Shared our secrets,  And felt every touch.  It's time to cry,  To stop our hearts,  To keep everything kept,  Inside the heart deep.  A misunderstanding,  A time to sacrifice,  A time to leave the love,  And time to say goodbye came.  Our paths disconnected,  And heart got broken And then, "You went your way And i went mine"

Am I that much bad? That my eyes can't even get happiness? What wrong I did? That I got separated from my friends Is I did that big mistakes? That everyone are blaming me Without even searching my secrets Had I been that cruel? I may hurt some people May be by telling the truth But is I'm that bad? That everyone run to Pierce my soul Am I that much bad? Have I did any big mistake? That my head pushed to hell And tears trying to cover the wounds Is my face is that much dirty? Or dirty is my soul? Why can't I live normal Why I don't deserve the love at all?

The wind stopped flowing And leafs are just still Chirping voice of birds Sounds like they're mourning Looking at the door Standing next to your chair I'm just waiting and waiting For you, to care My veins have your voices And heart is filled with memories Tears in deep inside my eyes And on my sight, your face keep blurring When I woke up from sleepless nights And looked beside, to see thy Remembering that hurtful misery Asking god again and again, "why?" Everything I eat, seems as poison It pains like I'm burning alive All alone, without your presence I'm lost, lost interest in life Starring at your movement less picture Taking it and hugging once again "Oh Darling! I know your last words, But I can't hide my pain" Fragrance of you, in every part of m Trying to feel your presence Because you told me twice That you'll be alive in my heart The wind started blowing And tears are just soaked May be you're watching me and yelling

The childish little faces And naughty heart of you Your irritating touch And blushing cheeks of mine Remember the game? The tangled finger fights The endless talks And your childish stories When you used to speak and speak  And I just had your cuteness in my mind Remember the game? Our finger fights When you touched me And I said "what?" You just replied innocently "What I did?" With a smile You remember the game? The tangled finger fights I was really a child When we were playing When you irritated me And I thought it's a joke lame Remember the game? When you hold my hand I started falling and falling More and more over your smile I wanted you with me always So I just stopped and smiled Remember the game? The tangled finger fights I began to stalk you And started waiting for your smile I was really fallen in love Ignoring all sexual attractions The game of love The tangled fingers of ours I kept waiting To sit near you To see your happy face To be t

You and me will hold hands forever Every single moment, second and whatever I love your face when I see your eyes shy We'll create a beautiful new life Full of enjoy and I planned world tour at least five I want to see you always fly I look into your eyes and then suddenly smile You seems like a diamond on my bed when you lie And me, I'm the happiest bird on peak of sky I yelled your name and knocked your door As I seen you from window, you were lying on floor I can't believe, no! You can't die Now, I'm spending my life on endless lies I'm coming to you there, I trapped in never ending sky https://medium.com/born-in-africa-gammo-style-of-english-poetry/born-in-africa-gammo-style-of-english-poetry-writing-5d729201155c

I have craziness Hidden deep inside me For the people I love And admire whose deeds I act so wild sometimes When someone hurt my Besties But I keep quiet always When something happens with me I love it so much If someone make me smile But I'll be even more happier If the happiness is gifted by me I do apologize always Leaving all attitude Cause I have forgiving nature And I'm scared of losing my dudes Sometimes I feel I'm brutal When I think of flesh, meat and blood And some hilarious criminals But I know I can't do that I ignore everything Whatever I don't like Never ask anyone to stop Or to be anyone's or mine I hate relationships As they all are fake at all Children, lovers, enemies They seems just like loads I always mess up things And I'm the nasty one I hate to touch water But sand is my soul I have helping nature And I can't ever say 'No' But if I'm not interested in someone I won't pay attention at all I'm innocent

Sinking and sinking More and more deeply To the depth of a sea Sea of my thoughts And ocean of my memories It's just like I'm not over thinking I'm just started thinking the things For the very first time  As I just left everything Without thinking anything And I found the thoughts Splitting out intensely Jumping to come out From my heart and brain The zip on my mouth Is not working now Since I opened it ones And the overloaded thoughts  Are coming out like hell Memories passing by my sight In the form of bubbles Making me smile sometime Or leaving some regrets Showing me everything I kept locked in a grave  The things hard to believe And harder to feel the pain Thoughts and memories together Hitting my mind with a bat Persuading me to hate everything And to love my own self Some are loving vibes too From the deep corner of my heart From the one standing with me On the phone calls of hours I'm broken and lost But happy too if you stare  When she called me An