the girl inside mirror

While going to another room
I see a mirror in my way
It have same height as mine
Deep enough to cover my whole bed

It asks me deeds of my day
And how I'm doing nowadays
It loves me too when I love myself
And show awkward expressions when I won't

When I do something good
The girl inside it smiles cutely
And when I do bad
The girl hides her self behind shame

Sometimes I get scared by her
When she do creepy things
And when she stares at me
I feel horrible or shy

Once the girl came in my dream
Dream? Not at all
It was a strange nightmare
Creepy enough to scare my soul

The girl was looking same as me
Lying out there on the terrace
Dying and screaming by pain
Injured, tired, exhausted and lost somewhere

I woke up when she died
And ran to that mirror
The girl was standing inside it
With injured body as hell

I started avoiding her
I never seen her back
I never ever wanted to
Even started running away from her

I get scared at nights, and feel like
She'll come back at any time
She will make me yell
And will take place of mine

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Depressed

Scared from everything Hiding behind air Running from everyone Lying like corpse Unconscious about every touch Can't feel any harm At the phase of this life I'm on devil's arms Ignored and swallowed eyes Tired from the world Teary and weak Exhausted and lost Waiting for demons Or poison, to be killed Having empty wish list Away from the love Away from myself Hating my own existence Screaming silently And waking up again from sleepless nights

but, until when?

Crying for hours Wiping the tears Alone in crowded room But, until when? Keeping mouth shut Tired of all rush Yelling for love But, until when? My tears can't heal The pain in my heart And the buried head But, until when? I need to stop But I want to run Loving just a blade or gun But, until when? Scared by separation Moaning your name And mourning on my died body But, Until when?

One more sleepless night

Yesterday, I decided to sleep early with my family. It’s been a long time we didn’t even talked properly. Finally, the conversation starts with talking about irrfan khan Mom : irrfan khan lied to her mother and became an actor. Dad : how brave he was, he used his talent and interest together. What you’ll do next sufiyana? I felt nice that at least we gonna talk seriously about my future which never goes straight. Me : I don’t have interest in biology, I believe I can do better with computer science.. Dad : so what will you do for it? Mom : you have a lot of calls about admission in universities and colleges and you just come to us and ask whether what should I do next Me : but I don’t know about anything now and wherever I search obviously they call and ask whether I wanna take admission or not. Mom : you can’t do anything, what you know is just using Facebook and that’s all. Me: mmmm…nothing. Mom : I guess, best thing is you should get married and and do whatever...

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