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Asked me to die

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I did nothing Nor I lied I did no sin And u asked me to die I wanna live alone Want badly to cry But I just smiled When you asked me to die I broke my veins To Join the prices of my heart My ears are still paining By the words I heard What was my mistake? What I did to thy? I just helped you And you asked me to die  See, I'm dead now Speechless and motionless lying I'll be at the top of stars Cause you asked me to die

Depressed

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Scared from everything Hiding behind air Running from everyone Lying like corpse Unconscious about every touch Can't feel any harm At the phase of this life I'm on devil's arms Ignored and swallowed eyes Tired from the world Teary and weak Exhausted and lost Waiting for demons Or poison, to be killed Having empty wish list Away from the love Away from myself Hating my own existence Screaming silently And waking up again from sleepless nights

All dreams

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He was brutal that day Like the lion before deer He tied my body with a brownish rope On the wooden edges of my soft bed I was totally surprised As I seen a wild animal inside him He took a sharpened knife And started piercing every layer of my skin He was extracting my every part And I was just watching unconsciously I wanted to scream hard But my voice denied to support me He was dipped in the blood My own dark reddish blood And suddenly I get up and stood I found nothing around me Was that really happened? I watched the cuts on my corpse But everything was disappeared like nothing And again I'm motionless drowning in my own thoughts Was it just schizoaffective disorder Or I'm seek of depression Is my own character from the world inside the mirror came out? Or it's demonic possession Everything going through my sight And I forgotten my existence I found myself in the middle of a desert Doing what?... nothing! Just laying down on the burning sand He was still standing the

Girl lost in society

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"Hannah, where are you? Don't you know I asked you to iron my shirt and you're still doing shit" the girl lost in household works and still being blamed for everything happens there. That day, Hannah cried again, her heart screamed when she was sinless and still being blamed by everyone. She remembered the moments and all the memories she had before, with the one she really loved a lot. Watching the pictures of her parents, who thrown her to the hell and grabbed her from her heavenly perfect world. "Hannah, shut up your mouth and get ready, we are your parents and we know what's good and bad for you and since we are your parents you must live like how we want you to live, we doesn't gave you birth to make us shameful in the front of society later. I don't wanna listen anything from you." The words of her mother were passing through her sight making giving her ears pain. She was fighting for her love and a beautiful life, the day before her mar

Baby born

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  It's about the birth of the little girl named "kanak" at 1:15 AM of midnight. Heavy storms Lightning in the sky Water on every corner Even not a single ray of sunlight Everyone wondering About the awkward situation around the room And suddenly from the silence A hellish baby cries Knock knock Knock knock Is everything alright? Asking her family Is she alive? A tall nurse came Opening the door of hell Having a little girl with four teeths In her large armful hands.

DEAR PARENTS...- pleasant darkness

Dear parents,      I know I did a mistake, which can't be undone again and I know I was wrong may be. I was wrong according to you because our thoughts never meet. I was wrong because my thoughts are of modern society and I understand you can't get me and I won't blame you for it. Yes, According to you, I did a mistake! But, was it really a mistake? I regret that I can't tell you anything, I have nothing to tell you because I know you can't understand me. I know I can't explain myself to you, I know my words are not enough to prove me right in front of you, I'm lose and you won.  Dear Mom, do you know everyone have a lot of friends and they all text each other, tag each other and have a lot of fun. Even, my all class is using social media it's not a bad thing. It was not a mistake but the mistake was you believed that unknown people, and that relatives more than me. It was really not a mistake if you really could understand me. Do you remember? Wh

PARENTS WITH TEENS - Pleasant darkness

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Many times, parents feel that their child's behavior is not like how they wanted it to be. Mostly people want their child to be ideal and to be same as what they want them to be. I'm not saying about all parents but I seen many parents personally. They want that everything done by them must be perfect but if children can't obey their wants, they just shout on them and show their anger instead of teaching them and explaining them. Many times Parents always blame their child for anything they get instead of teaching them and telling them the way to do anything, they just ignore everything. Even sometimes children commit suicide because their parents are unable to understand them and they feel helpless. I can give the example of mistakes of teens nowadays, as we all know, their are a lot of news about different things happened because of children in the age of puberty where the children are unable to express themselves and need someone to solve their problems, parents m

POSSESSIVENESS - The pleasant darkness

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Possessiveness,the word itself says a lot, being possessive for someone like stalking someone and getting angry about their own decisions and wanting them to obey you is called possessiveness. When we start our conversation with someone at the first time, we can't know whether what will happen next and how the person really is. But, after giving them enough time and when the person shows their real behaviour in front of you, you can see how the person reacts on the things you do and how they take you in their normal everyday life. In most cases, the person will ask you some small things like mostly in a conversation, the person asks about whom you talk, how you know them or even ask you to block other friends because of their jealousy (can be taken as their possessiveness) and when you obey them, they'll start to ask your passwords and the sweet talks turns into evil and irritating behaviour. The next step in most cases is the person will start getting angry on sill

No One is Mine - The Pleasant Darkness

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Everything was silent And I was screaming hard I was saying that she lied And no one believed No one even listened me Why? I was yelling In front of heart less beasts? It was my own family And I was yelling hard I don’t know why? An unexpected agony surprised me Agony of her little lie Which destroyed the pool of trust Trust of mine, on her And trust of my family, on me. I got beaten Again and again And everyone was insisting me Forcing me to accept To accept the mistake I never did. I was still screeching With the pain Which was piercing my heart And breaking it into pieces And the trust got burnt They end up by repeating the line “We still don’t believe you” I collected my pieces of heart And realised a worst truth Hugged my teddy And murmured “No one is mine.” #Chhaya