Pleasant Darkness (The Hidden Peace)

They all were together and happy Why I can't be there, with them? Am I an alien? Or something that looks so strange I had all body parts like them And i had feelings may be more than them But still my place was in dark A corner of my school's class I asked my parents, why i'm different? They answered, "you're precious" But do they throw precious things away? Is precious things do hurt everyone? That no one wants to hold my hand no one sits near me in lunch Do precious people can't effort to play To laugh and swing like others Is there no place for me? And the questions in my head bursts I'm not a child anymore I know i'm not precious, I'm dumb "No, you're not" i felt a voice in my ears It was mine I'm not dumb, I'm poor, tired lioness I can stand, I can laugh I can do what they can't And the journey starts Not to be like them, they're so cheap But to be better than them To make them crave to hold my han

When the quietness covers the world And sound of gossips stop After closing the eyelids When the world fall asleep The blankness under my eyes Start to change it's colour It turns to blurry black Everything seems just real But the blur and dark background Tells me it's a dream Or it might be a nightmare I never seen morning Nor I found the moon of night ever That black background Is what I have in my heart Some natural things And some shadowy creatures Everything is blurry Like a black faded colour The blurry black background

Everyone were around me I was taking my last breath And some shadowy people arrived To pick me up with them I was yelling "they are arrived, On horses with weapons" They were waiting for my death The blankness was overcoming my head It was terrible, scaring as hell My people were screaming Saying "No one is here, just relax" But my body was vibrating And i was horribly obsessed They were getting blurry And the sounds of their horses, Were coming more and more closer And my eyes got closed forever With the appearance of that people With deadly horses

A girl was kidnapped By a strange looking man Grabbed by ropes Stored in a plastic bag Her body was cold And frozen was her mind She tried to move But got stuck in huge ice When the ice got melted She was on fire Drops of fluxed iron Shielded around, destroying all her desires Now she was machinery With wires all around Controlled by that freak And millions creepy sounds Helpless like a bird Whose wings are broken Lying down on knees Dying just unspoken

I was a little child When that elder ones Were beating a kind man I tried to stop them But my dad said "Shhh.. they are your elders" I was of 12 When my elder schoolmates Were irritating an innocent girl I told to my teachers And they said "Shhh..don't tell anyone" For their school's reputation I was of 15 When my grandpa did something I was angry on him And stepped forward to fight But my mom stopped me saying, "Shhh.. respect your elders, go and apolozise" I was of 17 When a relative touched me I raised my voice again And everyone said "Keep shame in your eyes, they are elders Whatever they do is alright" Now, when everyone using me Killing me hardly from inside How will I break the silence When I know my voice will left unheard Cause they think I'm lying Since they're elders, and Me? Am I a child? It doesn't mean that anyone who is elder than you is doing everything perfect, WRONG means wrong no matter if it'

I just want you to know The situation I'm going through But I don't wanna speak a word I don't have courage to say "NO" And I don't wanna see you in sorrow I hope you know what I felt I wanted to see you happy But for me, it's more creepy And my heart, it's just melt and melt You know what I love and hate But I still think my body is a bait And I'm tied tightly with a leather belt It's not what I used to expect But I'm afraid if I must really accept

The deep long messages And cute little talks The care from heart And love from soul Do you think I can hate it? Long drives and bike rides Hugs kisses to heal every pain How can anyone don't want it? Someone standing with you When you lost everything And someone smiling more than you Watching your happy eyes Why can't I need it? Yes I love it too But something is scaring me Pushing me away from love Away from everything I want And that's what I call THE END A life like a dream But what if you woke up? And found nothing left In your locked room What when you'll crave? To get everything back That your happy heart had But it's just memories you might have What when these sweet talks And deep long messages Will start flowing into tears Now, I can hate it I can't want it anymore I imagined the love I heard love stories I know the pain behind it And I got the fear

I entered to a strange restaurant Decorated like a museum Bones and teeth were hanging And body parts looking unreal While waiting for the waiter I seen a blonde in red Seems like she is coming to me With two hot fresh cups of blood She stopped near me And asked me for company It's like dream came true As I wanted this in whole journey She served me something Deep red drink of blood I was shocked totally But I guessed it might be rum She took that cup To have a long sip I was still watching her Surprisingly with my large eyes And boom! Here's her vampire teeth And red eyes looking at me I was getting hypnotized To her bloody dark lips She took a bite on my neck Pouring the blood to that cup I started getting sleepy Or maybe everything getting blurred When I woke up it was all dark And I was surrounded by skeletons Guess I'm the newest one Waiting to be a skeleton like them