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she was just a child

She was just a child
A student of class 2
An innocent girl 
When she was enjoying
The rain on terrace
And her neighbour, a boy
Came there and forced her
To do something weird
She never knew why?

She was just a child
A little innocent girl of 7
When the old man of about 50 
Shown her something
Hilarious and terrible
She was actually afraid but excited
That she just has seen a real ghost
Because they were doing the things
That humans usually don't
So she thought it's a ghost.

She was the girl of 10 now
When she attended her uncle's marriage
And when she was sleeping
Her uncle's friend came in
And grabbing her like no one do
She screamed hardly
And everyone came 
And started cursing him
Don't know what happened there
What was he doing
Since, she was still innocent

Now, she was of 11 maybe
When her own uncle was abusing her
Playing hide and seek in front of others
And something else inside the blanket
And she thought it's just a game
That she don't like
But her uncle do
Because she never knew 
What it really is?

She was of 14 something
When a young man touched her
In a public bus
And she felt guilty about why
And ran out of there
But the man was following her
Waiting for her outside the school
To touch her more
To make her more guilty
But she fought

There were actually many incidents
Where she didn't knew what's happening
With her
Or is it happen with every girl?
She was confused whether it's normal?
Or everyone are doing wrong to just her
She was just unaware
That she must learn it too?
Or learn to fight with it

It was the age of adolescence
When she was in 9th or 10th
And got to watch porn
That's the point
When she got to know what happened
What was happening with her 
And why was that
She got to know
That they were horny monsters
But literally, she was virgin
Away from the peak of pain
But, is it still called virgin?
When everything happened with her
Accept the "sex"
Will it still said to be virgin?
If they grabbed her whole body 
Her whole brain
And heart too
But yea, she is "virgin"

Virgin by the body
But not by heart
Because they stole her innocence
And leaved nothing in her heart
She is just hating every man
Every boy near her
She have phobia of sex now
And a never ending fear and pain
But she never regret
Because she was innocent
She was not the one who did wrong
She was just a child

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