happy birthday to me

I was just trying
Trying to smile
Trying to fine
And trying to keep myself happy
To write something which makes me happy
To stay alive for a day or two
And just took the pen from geometry box
And opened my dearest diary
What next?
Voices knocked my head
Voices I never wanted to listen
From the lightened room
That was really unpleasant to me
Piercing my heart from my ears
And what now?
I got up and stood in front of mirror
Watching myself with a fake smile
Saying the fucking words
"Happy birthday to me"

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Depressed

Scared from everything Hiding behind air Running from everyone Lying like corpse Unconscious about every touch Can't feel any harm At the phase of this life I'm on devil's arms Ignored and swallowed eyes Tired from the world Teary and weak Exhausted and lost Waiting for demons Or poison, to be killed Having empty wish list Away from the love Away from myself Hating my own existence Screaming silently And waking up again from sleepless nights

Ocean of dreams

It's been long Something was stuck on my mind I could feel it Something was dragging out my heart I felt lost in a dream Like my soul is not mine anymore And it kept pulling me out Ever second, one by one My heart, my soul, my mind Were shivering It was something i never felt before And now, when i started to feel I can't get rid of it A hand that holding me from so long A feeling that pulling me in Enchanting me with the love And unforgettable sins Drowning me in, deeply In the ocean of dreams The imagination

Locked in a jar

I'm displayed in a jar Like a portrayed picture Stuck inside these transplant walls Circular and unmovable Everyone moving around me And I'm at the center With the cap of jar closed And some holes for oxygen It's really hard to breathe And no one can hear my scream I'm scared and hungry I know nothing, what'll they do to me Where is my love, where is my family Where is all my people gone after leaving me How'll they fight and will i be rescued? From these weird huge creatures looking humanly

Pleasant Darkness (The Hidden Peace)

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