happy birthday to me

I was just trying
Trying to smile
Trying to fine
And trying to keep myself happy 
To write something which makes me happy
To stay alive for a day or two
And just took the pen from geometry box
And opened my dearest diary
What next? 
Voices knocked my head
Voices I never wanted to listen
From the lightened room 
That was really unpleasant to me
Piercing my heart from my ears
And what now?
I got up and stood in front of mirror
Watching myself with a fake smile
Saying the fucking words
"Happy birthday to me"

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