when I was alive

You remember that?
When I was alive
When we used to live together
When my eyes were eagerly waiting
Just to see you
Just to touch you by my sight
And just to spend one more night
With the person I loved as hell
With just you
And what you did?
You came in the night
With an intense horrible darkness
To cover my whole body with your black world
I couldn't see anything
And my heart was peirced
Like someone is pricking it 
By all love and fate I have
I was still alive
To feel that affliction
And you started to throbbing my wrist
By the way I never expected
And all I could see was
The deep darkness
And the fire and blood all around
With your voices abusing me roughly
You pinched and pulled my hairs
And tried to extract them brutally
To see the pain in my eyes
But I had no tears to cry
Just screaming and squeaking
I wanted to speak
To ask which din I did?
Why I'm being punished by the way I never expected
And I was still saying sorry
By my scared dying voice
To the demon of my heavenly world
You performated my whole body
From neck to shoe
And I was waiting eagerly
This time, not for you but for my death
With my heart filled with just agony
The agony that still hard to believe
The agony that you gave me
When I was alive
To get rid of that torture
I just plucked a knife
To cut my veins from the neck
To get free from that suffering
You murdered my soul
And killed my heart
That used to beat for you
You killed a girl that always belonged to you
That was just yours
And never imagined your this side of you
You did a murder
Murder of every part of that body brutally
The body I used to live in
When I was alive
And now, I'm here again
Sitting quietly near you
To grab you into the world you pushed me
By the same way as you did
When I was alive
Yes, I'm gonna kill you
Same as you killed me 
When I was alive
I'm really not a murderer like you
But I'll kill you
Because I have no kindness now
You killed all my emotions
All feelings I kept in my heart
Even you killed my heart
See, I'm just a soul now
I'm back to take my revenge
To pull you at the door of hell
To push you into the hellish world 
That you never seen before
The revenge of what you did
When we used to live together
When I was alive

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